I hate college remix

Short Term Pain for Long Term Gain

This is what my Judo Sensei, Dr. James Tanaka, always told me. I always had a similar thought in that I always told my friends to always progress in life and no matter what hardships you go through, just learn from your mistakes and keep moving on to bigger and better things.I believe in another life, we would be best friends because our connection was like none other. He told me repeatedly that I reminded him of himself. I've always been humbled by him and always know that he will give me wisdom whenever I come into his life. He wrote me a beautiful letter of reccommendation that I will always cherish. I'll be turning in my army packet to become a Health Services Officer in the Army in late May or early June. I graduate May 22nd and can't wait.

I can only move on with each passing day. Lately I've had so much free time on my hands that I look at the world a little bit differently now. Now, I always smile, and I mean..always smile to everyone where ever I go and I believe it rubs off on everyone else. For every second spent being negative or mad at the world is a second of happiness you never get back. So I say always progress each day and don't be shy, walk with your head up high with confidence in everything that you do, and for everything that you do not know, be humble, learn, and progress onto any adventures in life you choose to take.

I've been hitting the gym about 4-5x a week now the past 5 weeks and I can definitely tell the results. Since the new year, I lost 13 lbs and keeping it off! I wouldn't say I'm on a diet, but I would say that I changed my eating habits: for 1, I have a fruit smoothie with protein powder, and oatmeal, ginko biloba pill, multi-vitamin pill anywhere from 2-3x a day, I'll have 1-2 snacks throughout the day, and have one hearty meal with plenty of calories to help keep me energized for whatever I do. The only other pills I take are fish oil pills 3x a day. It keeps my skin looking good, joints healthy, brain active, and lowers my LDL (bad cholesterol). My 6pack is coming in and staying! every week after a good cardio session or capoeira class I feel so proud for all the hard work I put in at the gym throughout the week.

more to come...time to zone out to MIKE POSNER !!
be on the look, I told all my friends that asher roth, wale, kid cudi, B.O.B., cory gunz and DRAKE were the next to blow back in 2007...now look at em...haha
here's one of my favorite songs by him that remind me of my homegirl from Fairfield..haha

A song that makes me smile =)

Going through some things

I'm in a situation that needs a lot of time and thinking to do. I know what I need to do though. To relieve stress in the mean time I will be trying to finish What Dreams May Come. It's a really good book but it's hard to read when you come home around 4:30 in the morning. I have to take care of finding an inpatient physical therapy clinic to get into and I also have a Dr.'s appointment at 10:30 at kaiser. I'm still debating whether or not I should just stay up another 5 hours and wing it and fall asleep from noon til 8pm or sleep a few hours now and then sleep more later.

Baby I love you.
Please find it in your heart to fully appreciate everything that we have
everything we have made
everything that we have been through.
I've never given up on us and never will.
You are appreciated.

6am - Vampire Status

Still not asleep. Probably because I woke up at 2:30pm today. Anyways, I feel like I've been living like a vampire lately. Being masochist only provokes me to act more like one..but I seem to notice I do a lot of my best thinking and performances at night: I always look forward to doing something whenever the sun begins to go down, I tend to be more active and go to Barnes & Noble and read Health and Fitness magazines, New Tattoo magazines and other MMA magazines until it's time for me to go to the gym and train capoeira. I'm so glad I don't go back to school for another month because I'm still enjoying getting 7+ hrs of sleep every(night)day now. I feel better during the week and am showing for it in many ways. My skin's a lot more clearer now because I'm getting more sleep and working out more with plenty of sleep (at least in my theory since I know I produce more growth hormone during my sleep which promotes so much health to my bones and muscles and other tissues throughout my body). I know loading trucks may not be considered a workout but I think of it as my light cardio warm down that lasts 4-5 hours. Picking up 1000 boxes that could weigh anywhere from 1-150lbs is no joke especially when you've worked out at the gym for 2 hours training capoeira, hitting the weights, ab training, and maybe a 3 mile run that same night (if I'm feeling like I'm on BEAST mode) haha. My body is showing for it too: I'm down to 185lbs compared to 194lbs a couple weeks ago. My parents were shocked when I told them how much I weighed, especially knowing that I'm only 5'7 (on a good day) But it's mostly muscle mass and some water weight so I'm not trippin. I'm starting to see my abs again and can tell that my overall core strenth is a lot stronger than it was last month. I'm training capoeira just like I used to when I took Berinjela's and Xango's classes on base and in Oakland and Vallejo.

Only one more month of freedom and it's going to be great. I think the week of my birthday (August 19th) I'll be starting my new shift which will be 5pm to ~ 10pm. And I get a promotion too =). A whopping 50 cents but I always appreciate my health benefits @ UPS. side note: I still need to make an appointment for a check up because of my daily headaches- hopefully it's nothing major and just a regular case of "I hate doing this shit so I'll give myself a migraine" type of headache. haha.

I got 2 tickets for next week's Rex Navarette stand up show @ Pepperbelly's in Fairfield for Lila and I. I can't wait to see him with my baby cakes! Rex is hella fucking funny and I've been an OG fan since 2000?....I remember my freshman year at Fairfield High when the teachers in our district when on strike and all of my friends and I spent our last 4-5 weeks of the school semester watching nothing but movies in the ROTC room and going swimming whenever we wanted too. I think it was Alex? that introduced me to his cd " husky boy " and I was crackin the fuck up. His oriental aisle, yoko john and ESL jokes were epic. Anyways, I can't wait to see him and it's gonna be w/ my Fairfield friends too!

My birthday is coming up and I'm gonna celebrate it @ BLUSH in Sacramento Thursday, August 20th. Even though my 24th birthday is the 19th..I'm still down to celebrate it on Thursday. Matt texted me earlier and said " You're not gonna celebrate ya B-day in frisko?" I almost forgot about how much fucking fun I always have at SF clubs but I've been so MIA from the club scene the past year I couldn't forget. I've been so distant from the clubs that I'ma celebrate it twice..and I'm going to BLUSH on that Thursday and some frisko club on that Saturday. I might go to suite 181 since I've always had a crackin ass time there. And I want to take my baby out there because that's almost the only "COOL" frisko club that she hasn't been too (even though I heard suite 181 turned in east oakland and is filled w/ nothing but yadadas who mean mug you at the club and musty dudes trynna holla at girls...) haha.

Capoeira.....................
Video party this Sunday! I can't wait because I've been missing my CDO FAM BAM for so long. They really are my family and always have my back no matter what. Everyone is like the brother, sister and cousin I've never had especially with the fact that we all understand each other in our own ways and no matter how long any of us may not see each other, the next time we see each other again it's as if we saw each other the day before. And for this brotherhood I've been a part of since December 2004, I will forever remain greatful. I'm gonna crash at Beri's house on Saturday and get some training down- I have to know hella sequences for my next belt (YELLOW CORD!) and am physically and mentally ready. I've been working on my cardio so much and weight training to get my strength back up again that I'm in the perfect shape to learn more capoeira tricks, kicks and all kinds of shit. LOGAN IS READY SON! ORRAHH!!!

Anyways I've been watching hella LA INK lately and still can't wait to get my next tattoo which will hopefully be around my birthday of my last name, MENDOZA on my abs like a true mexican! Orale !!!!.......

VIVA LA RASA HOMITOS....
-PAZ